how do i start this today?
i try to get through what ever is being tossed my way with good intentions, good attitude and a smile.
today i am not smiling.
i am bawling my eyes out.
sometimes i dont know what to do to make someone else feel better
and right now, i dont know how to comfort my own pain.
fuck
this totally sucks ass

why not?

oh my gosh, where do i begin?
i have the most incredible chicks in my life!!
full of inspiration, love and rainbow colors!!
yes, rainbow!
completely full of beautiful colors!

today i had a mingle-ing of hearts chat with one of
my soul tribe and realized that now is the time
to put away the calendar, agenda and lists of
things i should do and PLAY!!!
embrace my inner child!
play in the sprinklers and laugh!!
paint rocks, pictures, rooms!
lay on a blanket and tell funny stories!
find shapes in the clouds
put my feet in the river
catch fireflies and ladybugs
the time is now! it is in the air!!
create, play, giggle, love and have fun!
last year was a trying year
it felt like the desert
the anticipation of 2010 filled my soul
knowing it would be a better year, my year!
and now, right now i can feel it unfolding!!!
YAY!!!
remember when summer vacation lasted life times?
you could play all day, find adventure right in your very own yard
or on a walk or in your neigborhood?
now that i am an adult and parent, i should still
have all the magical wonder of childhood anytime i want!
for some reason in our culture we have been taught to
"grow up" , "be responsible" and all the other crap!
to hell with that,
i am declaring play time untill school starts!
go out and have some fun!!
the universe is begging you!!!
the earth is craving you!
go!!!
then tell me all about it :)
♥

i have this friend who is such an amazing spirit
i feel like we have know eachother for lifetimes
like were from the same soul family.
when we talk or hang out, it feels like home... never weird or uncomfortable.
the conversations can go anywhere and everywhere without judgement or shame.
just connection and deep understanding and respect.
its absolutely beautiful.
our friendship has allowed me to fearlessly be me :)

i am blessed beyond words to have you in my life.
sometimes months go by without talking, an email or text
and yet
i know, without a doubt, you are never too far away.

i love hookey days, ferry rides, city adventures, exploring exploritoriums, trolly cars, meeting artsy strangers, never meeting a stranger, reunions, being brave and feeling safe, mingling of hearts, funky cafes, inspiration, making time, tax day dates and reminders of who we are and how amazing it is to share in this journey together.

thank you for being such a supercoolhappylovething and for allowing me to be part of your world. you make my heart full and my face smile :)

oh how i have missed you, blogspot!!!
i am overflowing with happiness to be back here, just you and me♥!
thank you for being so patient with me as i cleaned out
the heavy mud of heart ache
and the weeds of someone elses oppinion of my character.
the garden of my soul is drenched with delicious smelling soil,
fertilized with joyful bliss and radiant colors of inspiration
and here you are...
allowing me to share my thoughts, visions and dreams.

loving the journey....

♥

i just read a lovely's beautiful heartfelt words

she is in a similar place along her path as i am
and i cried as i read her words

she is such a precious free loving soul
and it hurts my heart that she feels heavy and weighed down
at this time.

shine all the colors that you shine!!
xoxoxo


my lovely one♥

i have been trying,

with all that is within me,

to empty my tears,

to wash away the grief,

to understand the void,

to quiet the sighs,

to not feel so needy,

to find the internal bliss that fills my soul

with beautiful sparkly radiance♥

am i feeling sorry for myself?

am i releasing and letting go

and just unfamiliar with the cleansing and

purging of crap

that i feel like i am a stranger

in a strange land?


i am trying to embrace this new place

and

...just be

…right here

....right now.


i want to celebrate these tears,

knowing they are serving me and healing my

soul♥

i want to embrace the journey with reckless

abandon!

i also want to be beyond this

to play and giggle and shine

and seek out planned mischief

as well as unplanned adventures!!

i am looking forward to

river rituals

heart talks

crafting magic

fairy dancing

beach walks

pirate treasures

free hugs

making our lists

and experiencing some of it....

together♥



i am thankful for you♥

my warrior friend

so full of love♥

and beauty

and light♥

and gorgeous colors

that shine so bright and free!

and

for these little "things"

that seem like big things

that is causing my soul

to grow and bloom♥

♥ you always