last night you came to me in a dream.
you asked me if i was still in love with you.
my heart exploded and i cried.
i am and always will be.
it wasn't like you happened into my thoughts
you were intentionally there.
you were very present
you kissed me.
no matter where i went in my dream,
each phase of my dreaming
you were there.
i could feel you in my soul
you always said you would meet me in my dreams
on our moonbeam....
you were right
thank you
Monday, July 24, 2017
Wednesday, January 27, 2016
23 x 2
my sweet joey,
it's hard to fathom
that the years have doubled
since the world
as i knew it
stopped
and my heart shattered
hearing the words
"he didn't make it".
i didn't want this to be real.
i begged god
to please bring you back to us
it was too soon
we had so many things to do
you had so much more life to live
what about our family?
how do i do this without you?
i could hear you say
you have to do this
for our family
for you
for me.
my head was spinning
my heart was aching so bad
i could feel it in my soul.
and that aching
that pain
is just as real today
as it was 23 years ago.
joey, this day broke me wide open.
i didnt know what strength was
until it was my only option.
losing you
taught me so much...
about love
and courage
and how to keep our family together
even when i was falling apart.
it taught me
to make the most of every day
to be a better person
to love fiercely
with reckless abandon
and to never withhold good from anyone
to see others with the eyes of love.
from the ashes came so much beauty.
recently i read a quote that said
you never realize the value of a moment
until it becomes a memory.
our last goodbye kiss
and i love you as you got in our truck
to leave... i can still see your smile,
hear your voice
and feel the love we shared.
i miss you so much, woe joe.
this year is just as painful as the first.
my face is a wet, salty mess.
i don't know what is worse,
the shock of losing you
or the ache
of not having more days with you.
this grief thing doesn't change...
it still hurts like hell.
i will always mourn the loss
of you in our lives
and also, celebrate the days shared with you.
thinking of you
and loving you always
and holding you close in my heart.
never goodbye
but
see you later...
xoxxo
it's hard to fathom
that the years have doubled
since the world
as i knew it
stopped
and my heart shattered
hearing the words
"he didn't make it".
i didn't want this to be real.
i begged god
to please bring you back to us
it was too soon
we had so many things to do
you had so much more life to live
what about our family?
how do i do this without you?
i could hear you say
you have to do this
for our family
for you
for me.
my head was spinning
my heart was aching so bad
i could feel it in my soul.
and that aching
that pain
is just as real today
as it was 23 years ago.
joey, this day broke me wide open.
i didnt know what strength was
until it was my only option.
losing you
taught me so much...
about love
and courage
and how to keep our family together
even when i was falling apart.
it taught me
to make the most of every day
to be a better person
to love fiercely
with reckless abandon
and to never withhold good from anyone
to see others with the eyes of love.
from the ashes came so much beauty.
recently i read a quote that said
you never realize the value of a moment
until it becomes a memory.
our last goodbye kiss
and i love you as you got in our truck
to leave... i can still see your smile,
hear your voice
and feel the love we shared.
i miss you so much, woe joe.
this year is just as painful as the first.
my face is a wet, salty mess.
i don't know what is worse,
the shock of losing you
or the ache
of not having more days with you.
this grief thing doesn't change...
it still hurts like hell.
i will always mourn the loss
of you in our lives
and also, celebrate the days shared with you.
thinking of you
and loving you always
and holding you close in my heart.
never goodbye
but
see you later...
xoxxo
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
i see
i see carefree living
where laughter comes easy
and midnight pillow talks are the norm
where unplanned picnics and hikes to hidden places
and "let's go somewhere that we've never been"
is natural.
i see smiling faces
big hugs and tenderness
when things get tough
comfort is right beside you/me.
comfort is right beside you/me.
i see love overflowing
where judgement does not exist
where kindness and laughter
spill out everywhere
all day long
i see soul growth
looking inside
putting paper to pen
to make it all real
to get it out
to re read again
and see how far we've come.
i see cooking together
and drinking it all in
the love
the smells
the wine
the moment
the magic
i see memories being made
ones that last lifetimes
ones that our kids tell
their kids
i see making it through
the rough times
knowing that it is safe
and that one day we will laugh about it
i see this life
so worth living
and doing
and being
in this moment
without worry.
this is your life
live wildly!
where judgement does not exist
where kindness and laughter
spill out everywhere
all day long
i see soul growth
looking inside
putting paper to pen
to make it all real
to get it out
to re read again
and see how far we've come.
i see cooking together
and drinking it all in
the love
the smells
the wine
the moment
the magic
i see memories being made
ones that last lifetimes
ones that our kids tell
their kids
i see making it through
the rough times
knowing that it is safe
and that one day we will laugh about it
i see this life
so worth living
and doing
and being
in this moment
without worry.
this is your life
live wildly!
Monday, July 13, 2015
the leap
taking a step into the unknown can make you
both vulnerable and unsure.
it's scary when you can't see where
your next footstep will fall.
the beautiful thing is that you
are taking the leap.
that you are trusting the process
and staying on the path to reach
your goals.
your journey is just beginning...
you have so much living
and learning ahead of you.
and even more so,
you are gifted the time
to make it happen.
i want you to know that i believe in you.
i believe that you will take this
opportunity to do the things you never
thought you could.
to be the YOU
that has always taken a back seat
to what others thought you should
be doing and not what your heart desired.
now is the time
and it's all you.
take it
embrace it
and rock this world.
all the passion
the desire
the willingness
and the want
reside inside your beautiful soul.
go for it! you've got this!
always know...
that if you change your mind
and want something different;
it does not mean that you failed.
it means you have a higher vision
and want something more.
you will know what you want
by how it feels in your heart.
in your corner,
~me.
both vulnerable and unsure.
it's scary when you can't see where
your next footstep will fall.
the beautiful thing is that you
are taking the leap.
that you are trusting the process
and staying on the path to reach
your goals.
your journey is just beginning...
you have so much living
and learning ahead of you.
and even more so,
you are gifted the time
to make it happen.
i want you to know that i believe in you.
i believe that you will take this
opportunity to do the things you never
thought you could.
to be the YOU
that has always taken a back seat
to what others thought you should
be doing and not what your heart desired.
now is the time
and it's all you.
take it
embrace it
and rock this world.
all the passion
the desire
the willingness
and the want
reside inside your beautiful soul.
go for it! you've got this!
always know...
that if you change your mind
and want something different;
it does not mean that you failed.
it means you have a higher vision
and want something more.
you will know what you want
by how it feels in your heart.
in your corner,
~me.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
thinking out loud
after so many breaks of my heart
i forgot the beauty in feeling
how the beat of a song
and the lyrics unfolding
taking me to a place
i thought was long forgotten
you whispered to the embers
in this heart of mine
with tenderness and truth
without regards to anything
but the here and now
setting the flame ablaze
your tender whispers and words of love
have dismantled the fortress
i have built
brick
by
brick
patience and continuous love
that has proven unquenchable
brings me back to the core
of that
beautiful
raw
knowing
feeling
that comes straight from your belly.
letting me know that
true unashamed love exists
today
in the here and now.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
you...
you...
with your soft and contagious smile
with a splash of mischief and innocence
you
with your spirit aglow and your heart on your sleeve
and your head held high and your confidence beaming
you
that passes the mirror and doesnt pay it no mind
that knows it's not who you are just your reflection
you
who loves with her whole being
and seeks out the hidden things that make others special
you
who embraces your so called flaws as miraculous beauty
that shows others how lovely their uniqueness is
you
who shines bright on the darkest of days
and embraces her shadows with love and light
you
over there
i.see.you.
with your soft and contagious smile
with a splash of mischief and innocence
you
with your spirit aglow and your heart on your sleeve
and your head held high and your confidence beaming
you
that passes the mirror and doesnt pay it no mind
that knows it's not who you are just your reflection
you
who loves with her whole being
and seeks out the hidden things that make others special
you
who embraces your so called flaws as miraculous beauty
that shows others how lovely their uniqueness is
you
who shines bright on the darkest of days
and embraces her shadows with love and light
you
over there
i.see.you.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
wild moon
for this chilly night
with blankets pilled high
and
the choir of crickets
singing their songs
my eyelids trying to stay open
to get one last glimpse
of this beautiful moon
my soul and mind at peace
ready for sweet slumber
as i drink in one last drop
of your wildly brilliant light
Thursday, January 22, 2015
dear life
i want you back
i want to wake up
to bask in your light
and wonderful colors
i want to emerse myself in your beauty
to take you in and know that i am here
now
i want my heart to enjoy each day
my face to be covered in smiles
my walk to radiate goodness
and laughter
and love
i want this dark thing
to go away
far away
i want to see all the beauty in this life
and love every inch of it
including the dark
but not like this.
i want to wake up
to bask in your light
and wonderful colors
i want to emerse myself in your beauty
to take you in and know that i am here
now
i want my heart to enjoy each day
my face to be covered in smiles
my walk to radiate goodness
and laughter
and love
i want this dark thing
to go away
far away
i want to see all the beauty in this life
and love every inch of it
including the dark
but not like this.
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
the road with you
with tears in my eyes as i read what you sent me...
i want to drive to there
the place where we find ourselves
the place where we find ourselves
where healing begins
with the windows down
our hair blowing
becoming perfectly and beautifully messy
where we listen to the road whisper three things
the world blinds you with its beauty
you only write redemption
you always make your way back to good.
i want to write magic and blessings in the sand
to drink in the day by the campfire
to wake up to the promise that today
the universe gifts us
with one more day
with one more day
full of
light
lessons
love
and laughter
and laughter
sprinkled with fae dust
and kissed by faeries
go to that place just waiting for our arrival
to feel like we belong
and to be a local
for a day
or maybe 4
maybe more
i want to go with you
because you know me
my heart
my hurts
my triumphs
my soul
and
i know you
and yours
ilySM
2014
last year at this very moment, 8:25am
i was getting off a plane that brought me to you.
i was surprised with almost everything from the very first time
that plane brought me to you three years before
being met with flowers
the biggest hug
and most passionate kiss
holding hands till we got to the truck
with the anticipation of the day
not knowing what you had planned
for the 36 short hours that we had
carved out for us
like the gentleman that you are
you opened my door to get me in out of the cold.
you opened your door only to reach in the back
and grab two sippy champagne glasses
along with my favorite oj and champagne
our cups were full
we cheered to us
smiled and hit the road.
as we chatted i noticed we were going
somewhere different.
somewhere familiar.
deep inside i wanted to ask
but trusted and let your plan unravel your way
we made the same exact route as three years before.
coffee in cali, flowers in oregon and flipped a bitch in washington
my heart smiled
we took the 205 over the columbia
you the took 84 east exit
things are starting to look familiar
as we drive to your planned place
we are so happy and cozy
knowing that even though
our time is short
it's going to be amazing.
as youre driving and were sharing
the wonderful fruit tray to nourish
our morning bellies
i notice youre taking me to the same
exact beautiful places you
showed me the very first time
the falls were gorgeous and full
i can never tire of the magnificent
beauty of those falls
the beauty of the road that took us there
the lovliness of the same route and
how patient you are with me needing to
stop snap photos of all lushness of this place
so that i would never forget
as we head back to town
we stop at one of our go to
spots to grab a bite to eat.
you share with me of the plans that
you've made for us to ring in the new year
you have everything covered.
all i have to do is enjoy you and this time
we carved out of our busy lives
my heart is full of love and how much
time you put into this. this amazing time.
it's still early but the food and drink make us
want to go home and snuggle in tight and nap...
it feels so good to be "home"
and cozy
under the covers with you.
we play
we giggle
we tenderly touch
we wear ourselves out
we nap.
we wake up.
t-minus 26 hours till lift off
showered, dressed up and ready to go...
it's 6:45
dinner reservations at 10
we go to our favorite watering hole
say hello to our favorite bartender
have a couple of her famous drinks
try our luck at video poker
take pictures with the champagne "glasses" you bought
laugh and make silly faces and laugh some more.
our seats for dinner were fantastic
we had the perfect view
the coolest server
delicious gourmet food
and the biggest jackass
at the table behind us.
good times.
we return to the clubhouse to countdown to
the promise of so many plans for 2014
it was pure magic.
you planned out and accomplished
the best sleep over we've had in a long time...
day after day....
waking up slow
enjoying the morning with you
packing my bag
with the room being a little dusty
knowing that i was leaving in a few hours
and not knowing when we would lay eyes
on each other again.
my heart was aching leaving you...
at the airport an "i dont want to let go" hug
honking cars
a short kiss and a 'see you soon'
thank you for creating the best new year yet
from that moment forward
i have learned so much about
love and life and knowing myself
more and more each day
about healing from the inside out
about letting go of the painful parts
and haging on to the beauty of the moment
wishing you a wonderful 2015
'
i was getting off a plane that brought me to you.
i was surprised with almost everything from the very first time
that plane brought me to you three years before
being met with flowers
the biggest hug
and most passionate kiss
holding hands till we got to the truck
with the anticipation of the day
not knowing what you had planned
for the 36 short hours that we had
carved out for us
like the gentleman that you are
you opened my door to get me in out of the cold.
you opened your door only to reach in the back
and grab two sippy champagne glasses
along with my favorite oj and champagne
our cups were full
we cheered to us
smiled and hit the road.
as we chatted i noticed we were going
somewhere different.
somewhere familiar.
deep inside i wanted to ask
but trusted and let your plan unravel your way
we made the same exact route as three years before.
coffee in cali, flowers in oregon and flipped a bitch in washington
my heart smiled
we took the 205 over the columbia
you the took 84 east exit
things are starting to look familiar
as we drive to your planned place
we are so happy and cozy
knowing that even though
our time is short
it's going to be amazing.
as youre driving and were sharing
the wonderful fruit tray to nourish
our morning bellies
i notice youre taking me to the same
exact beautiful places you
showed me the very first time
the falls were gorgeous and full
i can never tire of the magnificent
beauty of those falls
the beauty of the road that took us there
the lovliness of the same route and
how patient you are with me needing to
stop snap photos of all lushness of this place
so that i would never forget
as we head back to town
we stop at one of our go to
spots to grab a bite to eat.
you share with me of the plans that
you've made for us to ring in the new year
you have everything covered.
all i have to do is enjoy you and this time
we carved out of our busy lives
my heart is full of love and how much
time you put into this. this amazing time.
it's still early but the food and drink make us
want to go home and snuggle in tight and nap...
it feels so good to be "home"
and cozy
under the covers with you.
we play
we giggle
we tenderly touch
we wear ourselves out
we nap.
we wake up.
t-minus 26 hours till lift off
showered, dressed up and ready to go...
it's 6:45
dinner reservations at 10
we go to our favorite watering hole
say hello to our favorite bartender
have a couple of her famous drinks
try our luck at video poker
take pictures with the champagne "glasses" you bought
laugh and make silly faces and laugh some more.
our seats for dinner were fantastic
we had the perfect view
the coolest server
delicious gourmet food
and the biggest jackass
at the table behind us.
good times.
we return to the clubhouse to countdown to
the promise of so many plans for 2014
it was pure magic.
you planned out and accomplished
the best sleep over we've had in a long time...
day after day....
waking up slow
enjoying the morning with you
packing my bag
with the room being a little dusty
knowing that i was leaving in a few hours
and not knowing when we would lay eyes
on each other again.
my heart was aching leaving you...
at the airport an "i dont want to let go" hug
honking cars
a short kiss and a 'see you soon'
thank you for creating the best new year yet
from that moment forward
i have learned so much about
love and life and knowing myself
more and more each day
about healing from the inside out
about letting go of the painful parts
and haging on to the beauty of the moment
wishing you a wonderful 2015
'
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
not as before
you flirted with sweet words.
wooing me towards you
though we were so far away.
i had a vision of who you were
with words and actions
though we were so far away.
i believed in you
and
your dreams.
you wanted me to share your dream
and making others believe this dream this too.
i couldnt do it.
it felt pushy and dirty
and like a lie.
i still believed in you.
you pulled me in just enough
to keep me close
you showed me what love was
and what love wasnt.
you showed me how important family is to you.
you gave me some very good memories.
you taught me resentment and defensiveness.
you showed me that "love" is disposable
and that it has a shut off switch.
i dont see it that way.
i see you now
and
youre good
youre just not who i saw before
wooing me towards you
though we were so far away.
i had a vision of who you were
with words and actions
though we were so far away.
i believed in you
and
your dreams.
you wanted me to share your dream
and making others believe this dream this too.
i couldnt do it.
it felt pushy and dirty
and like a lie.
i still believed in you.
you pulled me in just enough
to keep me close
you showed me what love was
and what love wasnt.
you showed me how important family is to you.
you gave me some very good memories.
you taught me resentment and defensiveness.
you showed me that "love" is disposable
and that it has a shut off switch.
i dont see it that way.
i see you now
and
youre good
youre just not who i saw before
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
let's go
this morning my note from the universe said
Then, try acting like all you wish to be real already is real. With just a word here, a sentence there, or some little demonstration. If only in private. Before long, you won't even remember if what you used to believe was real or just a dream. I'm pretending you already do this stuff whenever you want change, The Universe right now i wish that my car is full of gas my bank card is super full of cash me and my road warrior and adventure sister had more time off than we knew what to do with and could hit the open road. i see seattle boston new york texas as my top four right now. and landing where ever our free spirits felt we needed to be. ahhh to visualize and feel the magic of this moment is priceless. |
Monday, June 23, 2014
oh monday...
there are so many errands i need to run
phone calls i need to make
and chores i need to start or complete
today im just not feeling it
what i would prefer to be doing
is sitting by the water journaling
so much has been going on lately
externally and internally
so much so that i really just want to
scream, shout,laugh, cry and,
love through my pen to the pages.
however, the voice in my head keeps screaming
how can you have any pudding if you dont eat your meat?!!!!
okay
okay spirit,
i get it!
off to make those calls,
run those errands
maybe finish a few chores
as my patient journal awaits for what my soul craves to release
phone calls i need to make
and chores i need to start or complete
today im just not feeling it
is sitting by the water journaling
so much has been going on lately
externally and internally
so much so that i really just want to
scream, shout,laugh, cry and,
love through my pen to the pages.
however, the voice in my head keeps screaming
how can you have any pudding if you dont eat your meat?!!!!
okay
okay spirit,
i get it!
off to make those calls,
run those errands
maybe finish a few chores
as my patient journal awaits for what my soul craves to release
Thursday, June 19, 2014
gratitude
in the waking hours
theres a gentle breeze playing with my curtains
and the daylight dances in and out beconning me to come dance along with her
come out here with me
if even for a lilttle while
come play with me
and enjoy me
let me embrace you
let me warm your body
and soothe your soul
let me give you what you need this morning
before things get too hectic and you forget
to enjoy the warmth of my love
with gratitude in my heart
i do....
♥
theres a gentle breeze playing with my curtains
and the daylight dances in and out beconning me to come dance along with her
come out here with me
if even for a lilttle while
come play with me
and enjoy me
let me embrace you
let me warm your body
and soothe your soul
let me give you what you need this morning
before things get too hectic and you forget
to enjoy the warmth of my love
with gratitude in my heart
i do....
♥
Thursday, June 12, 2014
life... living it
yesterday was kind of an up and down day
part focused
part giggles
part tears
it was filled with feelings
intense feelings
some i embraced
some i resisted
even in the resistance, i felt them
it was just more painful
i spent some time with my soul sister
who grounded me with wisdom
and encouraged me to feel ALL of it
these are just feelings
they shape us by how we
respond to them
they also remind us that we are alive
our minds are so powerful
we have the ability to change the
way we think about things
we can either make it sucky
or look for the silver lining
this morning in my meditation
i found the silver lining in
so much of the grief that i have
caused myself
(30 second dance party)
today is the day :)
my intentions are set
life is beautiful
live the heck out of it!
part focused
part giggles
part tears
it was filled with feelings
intense feelings
some i embraced
some i resisted
even in the resistance, i felt them
it was just more painful
i spent some time with my soul sister
who grounded me with wisdom
and encouraged me to feel ALL of it
these are just feelings
they shape us by how we
respond to them
they also remind us that we are alive
our minds are so powerful
we have the ability to change the
way we think about things
we can either make it sucky
or look for the silver lining
this morning in my meditation
i found the silver lining in
so much of the grief that i have
caused myself
(30 second dance party)
today is the day :)
my intentions are set
life is beautiful
live the heck out of it!
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Monday, June 2, 2014
love is, by
definition, so many things..
a strong
affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties.
attraction
based on sexual desire...
affection and
tenderness felt by lovers....
affection based
on admiration, benevolence, or common interest....
an assurance of
affection and love...
a warm attachment,
enthusiasm, or devotion....
a beloved
person....
an unselfish
loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another...
concern for
others.
i love every
single one of these!
no wonder love
is so complex and beautiful.
i love
tenderness shared between lovers
assurance of
affection
strong
affection for people you feel ties to, like your tribe, or family, or common
interests.
i love that
love can mean and feel so many things...
i feel such a
strong unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for MANY...
when i love
you, its done. there is nothing you can do about it.
i will always
love you
and who you are
and who you are
becoming and or want to be
and it takes a
lot to break that connection for me.
i love that
about love and about me :)
so, incase i
havent told you lately...
i
love you
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
pieces
this weekend i am making a long trip to gather up pieces of my life
that for some reason hold value to me.
maybe.
maybe its the trip.
maybe its the putting those pieces back in my life
to feel whole again and maybe to let go of later....
i dont fucking know.
i do know that i have to do this.
its uncomfortable and something that i was very unprepared for.
in my mind, i thought that once the dust settled and the natives
moved on, we would find our place again.
that disagreements would have time to find a place to settle
and that life would become easier and distractions less
that the passion and excitement would build and cause
us to forge into this new found place of just being US
a place to start fresh and find our place in this crazy awesome world.
that's not the case and it may have been inevitable
well it actually was cause i am making that long trip
to gather up the piece to try to put things back together
and still have that life that i imagined....
this time, i am going big
my imagination is bursting with love
and fun
and adventure
and fights
and makeup sex
and quiet days
and chore days
and more love
this time i am putting a big fucking fence around my open, gentle heart.....
not to keep anyone out
just to protect it because it is so precious
i miss the love shine bursting out of it and the bliss that goes along with it
that for some reason hold value to me.
maybe.
maybe its the trip.
maybe its the putting those pieces back in my life
to feel whole again and maybe to let go of later....
i dont fucking know.
i do know that i have to do this.
its uncomfortable and something that i was very unprepared for.
in my mind, i thought that once the dust settled and the natives
moved on, we would find our place again.
that disagreements would have time to find a place to settle
and that life would become easier and distractions less
that the passion and excitement would build and cause
us to forge into this new found place of just being US
a place to start fresh and find our place in this crazy awesome world.
that's not the case and it may have been inevitable
well it actually was cause i am making that long trip
to gather up the piece to try to put things back together
and still have that life that i imagined....
this time, i am going big
my imagination is bursting with love
and fun
and adventure
and fights
and makeup sex
and quiet days
and chore days
and more love
this time i am putting a big fucking fence around my open, gentle heart.....
not to keep anyone out
just to protect it because it is so precious
i miss the love shine bursting out of it and the bliss that goes along with it
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
my list for the summer....
bon fires on the beach in carmel
hiking to feather falls... and having a sleep over
going to a dress up dinner in a city i have never been to
watching the texas rangers play in Arlington
watching the sox play in boston
while in boston going to the amazing outdoor book store
learning to surf
sleeping at the beach.... any beach that will allow me to have a tent and a camp fire
whale watching~ i have never seen whales...
bike riding through gold country tasting all the boutique wines and lovely food
write... be inspired.
learn something, maybe ten things new every day!
dressing up and going out... just because
tahoe and the outside shows.... let's start with Journey/Steve Miller
virginia city... just to feel like an outlaw (and maybe experience some history)
calaveras frog jumping
dancing real close
skinning dipping at midnight
candle light picnic outside
cooperstown
giants a's game
seattle.... just seattle
something unexpected
sunsets..... ALWAYS
pictures of everything (that my old D50 can capture)
burning man
lots of concerts.... a7x and alice cooper. yes please.
and friends to share all of this with. life is so meh without your people.
hiking to feather falls... and having a sleep over
going to a dress up dinner in a city i have never been to
watching the texas rangers play in Arlington
watching the sox play in boston
while in boston going to the amazing outdoor book store
learning to surf
sleeping at the beach.... any beach that will allow me to have a tent and a camp fire
whale watching~ i have never seen whales...
bike riding through gold country tasting all the boutique wines and lovely food
write... be inspired.
learn something, maybe ten things new every day!
dressing up and going out... just because
tahoe and the outside shows.... let's start with Journey/Steve Miller
virginia city... just to feel like an outlaw (and maybe experience some history)
calaveras frog jumping
dancing real close
skinning dipping at midnight
candle light picnic outside
cooperstown
giants a's game
seattle.... just seattle
something unexpected
sunsets..... ALWAYS
pictures of everything (that my old D50 can capture)
burning man
lots of concerts.... a7x and alice cooper. yes please.
and friends to share all of this with. life is so meh without your people.
Monday, May 26, 2014
oh today.... i love you
i woke up with my fear still in my throat
but closer to my collar bone than last night.
thank you
thank you spirit for showing me
with many signs that
i am enough.
that my light shines not for me but to shine on others so that they may shine brighter.
thank you mother nature for your sweet soft moist soil to cool my tired hot feet.
thank you kind lady on the phone from Verizon who i wanted to HUG so BIG at
the end of our conversation and resolution of my ridiculous problem.... you are a rock star!
today, i love you.
i love you for how you unfolded unlike i expected.
how you showed me love in unexpected places
how you burst out unexplainable amazing fucking love in ways that just baffle me
thank you
i love you... may 22,2014 more than i thought possible yesterday.
you, with all your unexpected people and love and time spent sharing how life is really so amazing..... you are a bad ass.
i love you today
because you are time and a healer and a lover
but closer to my collar bone than last night.
thank you
thank you spirit for showing me
with many signs that
i am enough.
that my light shines not for me but to shine on others so that they may shine brighter.
thank you mother nature for your sweet soft moist soil to cool my tired hot feet.
thank you kind lady on the phone from Verizon who i wanted to HUG so BIG at
the end of our conversation and resolution of my ridiculous problem.... you are a rock star!
today, i love you.
i love you for how you unfolded unlike i expected.
how you showed me love in unexpected places
how you burst out unexplainable amazing fucking love in ways that just baffle me
thank you
i love you... may 22,2014 more than i thought possible yesterday.
you, with all your unexpected people and love and time spent sharing how life is really so amazing..... you are a bad ass.
i love you today
because you are time and a healer and a lover
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