now

as of late my mind
my thoughts
and my soul's desires are conspiring and conversing
about what life means
what the future looks like
and what its like fully living in the present moment

for me, being in the present moment takes practice
its definitely a challenge
my thoughts are flux
thoughtful of the past
experiencing the now
planning the future
dreaming of life overflowing with love and bliss!
knowing that there is so much more...
more to taste
more to smell
more to see
more love
more to experience
more to write

right smack dab

yesterday i woke up to the storm clouds
promising me lovely reflections of
sparkly clean clarity from the washing away
of all the sweat and dust of the last week
just to have my ass kicked by a dust bunny!

i thought i had made peace with what my heart felt
and resolved that it is what it is and what it is
is absolutely beautiful!

but wow...
now i am taken back..
the rain just washed away the veil
of the truth in my heart.
so i ask myself

self, does this serve you to think such things
or feel this way?

self to ego says

i believe so...
i believe that its okay to have this be perfect in
all its unorthodox sanctity
its beautiful no matter what
and to be happy with being
right here
right now
doing this
until
if there is a time
that things could be different

I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness,
the astonishing light of your own being.
~Hafiz of Persia


spent
empty
fearful
unsure why..
you dont care about the "why"
you never have

you dont take pity on me
you say what needs to be said
what i need to hear
grab my hand
lift my heart
gently cradle it
and
remind me of the truth
and even when
the lessons
are tough
life is so beautiful

you love with out resistance
and care unyielding
regardless of how messy
my head and heart get

because of you
my tank is filling
i am emerging
and doing my best not
be hospitable to fear
to let go of the
perfectly hypothetical
what if's

i am reminded that
i am
the illustrator
and
author
of my story


thank you
for taking the time
investing the energy
for knowing me
knowing my heart
seeing past the surface
to the deepest parts
♥ & soul
and loving me anyway

you are my forever friend
i am honored beyond words
to have you in my life

swirling

my heart is full
or
should i say filling more?

♥ love ♥ gratitude ♥ peace ♥ joy

over flowing

to experience this
all this
presently
i mean seriously present
not past
not future
here
now
is incredible.
like flowers are blooming all around
if i close my eyes
i can smell them
hyacinth
jasmine
gardinia
narcissus
♥
pure bliss
♥

what is your bliss today?

♥

♥
i want to grab a bottle of wine
head to the river
sit on the bank
talk about our desires
what makes us click
what turns us on
what it would take to live life on fire!
are you {on}?
♥
♥

lunar~tics

as of late
i have noticed this
lunar~tic energy all around
it has caused some
spiritual/emotional
growth spurts
or lessons

im very good at resisting

its uncomfortable

i have had to look in the mirror
and ask myself
why is this so hard
what is it that i am not embracing
how do i learn this lesson
and move forward

funny thing is...
i know the answer
its hard to admit emotional weaknesses
i have a huge defense mechanism that
pops up when i am afraid of rejection

however

when i can step away from a situation
and look at it
really focus on the situation
and not take it personal
and not allow my ego
to run the show
i am humbled
and strengthened
by the beauty of the lesson

i allowed a seed of doubt to sprout
in my soul and totally choke out
the peace that is flourishing
in my mind and soul

really?

what the hell is that about?

the lesson

to remember who you are

and that
not everyone
is going to get you
nor do they have to
agree with you
but
if you surround yourself
with kindred souls
people with a common
future, path or heart
you dont have to have them
"get you"
or
"agree with you"
because
they
respect you
for you
because
there
is
no
one
more
youer
than
you♥

Choose your path

Your problems are real and demanding.

Yet they are tiny when compared to all the positive possibilities for your life in this moment.

You have fallen short in the past.

Yet the past is over, and you are free to choose a new and more fulfilling direction, right now.

There are difficult challenges that you now face.

And right alongside those challenges, intertwined and intermingled with them, there are stunningly magnificent opportunities.

This is your time to grasp those opportunities.

Whatever may try to hold you back is trivial and of little consequence when compared to what you can gain by moving forward.

The difficulties this moment may hold are far outnumbered by the possibilities for achievement, learning, love, joy and fulfillment.

Focus your mind, focus your energy on the best of those possibilities.

In this very moment you are free to choose any thought, any action, any path you wish.

Choose to step confidently forward on the path to the best place and the best life you can possibly imagine.